Motivation gets you started, habit keeps u going

5:45 am run...sooooooooooooooo great...love it! 64 degrees at the end of the run.

well off to my moms. I'm making her help me address wedding invitations...LOL

The plan was to wake up at 5:45 and run 10. But at 4:30 and again at 5 and then at 5:30 I heard rolling thunder. It is now 8 and it is still thundering and raining. We seem to be getting hit hard by storms this year. I remember it raining last year but still being able to run in it. Thunder keeps me indoors.

It is also day 4 of waking up with feeling like there is a lump in my throat.

Today I started my time of the month...so I'm eating my mom's home made bread and I had bacon and eggs with my mom's garden tomatoes...very comforting. I don't have to work tonight so it maybe a good time to fininsh this book I"m reading Copper Sun if you are interested. I also started listening to a book on tape called Life as We Knew It

5:50 am run. I talked myself out of a 10 miler. I have an interview today at 9am. I figure I would be back from a 10 by 8. But I still wanted to re iron my suit and just do some other mental prep work. So I did 4. I was glad to b/c it was very very humid. Looks like more storms are coming my way as well. I just hope it pours on me after I get my hair into the building for the interview. I would hate to look like a hot mess!

I tossed and turned all night so I"m sure I will need a nap later.

I finished Copper Sun  yesterday--great book. Now I"m reading There Are No Shoeartcuts. Really good start as well.

Speaking of rain--just started to rain and my flower pot was blown over and some how my screen door was blown open...weird. b/c we always have it locked.

5:50am run. 70 degrees.

The wind felt great that early. But as my run got longer the sun came out and made it blah. My miles got slower. But still felt great doing them.

In other news--my interview went well. One of my friends was in on the interview and told her hubby who told my SO that I impressed the principal and that they thought I was a candidate. I just wish I knew which position. Neither is a teaching job full on. ONe is for a teaching assistant and the other is a Reading interventionist. Money wise I hope I get the reading job. Either job I could be happy with. Both are only for the school year. But frankly, I get paid more being a waitress than I would as an assistant. How sad is that? Oh and these jobs I would work 30 hours a week andI work less than that as a waitress...

Well my truck needs washing before it gets too hot.

6:30 am run...nice and chill (maybe 60ish degrees?). So I took advantage and ran 2 MP miles.

Im not sure if I blogged about this but I have really beat myself up this week.

Monday I went to my parents house. They have had some flooding issues and wante my bro and I to carry out the old hot water tank. Well my brother put it down several times without telling me and my knee went right into the tank. I have a nice bruise on my knee cap. It is okay Karma got him b/c the tank rolled on his toe. I also stubbed my toe.

They yesterday I went to get the garden hose to wash my truck. Well I had to pass over one of our sidwalks. This is where we have our sump pump pumping out water. It is kinda slimy and I forgot, I was barefoot...and I went down for the count on the side of my thigh. I have a nice bruise there and yes it hurts. Hurt more when I touch it or accidently sit on it. Right turns in my truck are brutal. I'm super surprised that I got my run in this morning.

I kept hitting the snooze this morning. My leg hurts. and SO got a flat tire in the NEW vehicle (as in we just made the first car payment) so I have to go see about getting the tire fixed or getting a new tire...and I thought we were gonna have extra money this month. Sigh.

Needless to say I don't much feel like running. I have the whole day off so maybe I will get it in later. for now I must go to the car place. BLAH.

I ran

ran 4 at 6a.m. my legs had like 12 monkeys on them. I can come and did some light stretching and pushups.

Shred Level 2

P.S. I got the job I wanted..Reading Interventionist. I get to talk to my partner and set up class on thursday. Muah!

slept past my alarm. grrr. So I didn't wake up to beat the sun. I tried a new trail someone suggested and it only ended up being 1 mile. YUCK. so I drove to my usual bike path and ran the rest there. I was suppose to do 11 but it was sooooo stinking hot. I got home and the temp feels like 91. YUCK. the last two miles there was NO tree cover. so glad to be home.

so I may not get that job now. I don't have my IN license yet (which they knew) but never asked the cooperation that i'm being paid through if that was okay. So hopefully it is.

I'm wiped out...and my scratchy throat is back along with some weezing feeling in my chest that has a cough. Great b/c I have to work 7 days in a row...one of them is a double. Today it is suppose to hi 105 with the heat index. BLECH!

In work news--Indiana is weird. They told me to send my junk in and wouldn't tell me what tests i needed. So I did that. Now I have to take tests. and I realize hey why can't i have a temp license. Well I asked and guess what? they claimed they didn't know I had my IL license. So now I should get my temp license next week...so I should get my job...I just hope the principal gets my voice message!

I haven't wanted to blog at all b/c I haven't run since last wednesday. I'm trying to be okay with that. I have been trying to keep up with strength but the excuses just roll on in.

I have had this ridiculous chest lung can't breath thing. It was only bothering me at night so I wouldn't sleep and then I take naps all day. I ran out of cough medicine.  I finally called my doc today. She seems to think it is allergen related so she prescribed more cough medicine and an inhaler. Yuck.

At this point I can't say I miss running. I have a nagging feeling to go and run. But then it doesn't happen and I get all forget about and frustrated with myself. At this point it seems better to ignore the ugly running elephant in the room.

In better news, I start my new job on Monday (teachers only, Mon and Tues; Wednesday is the kids first day). Which means I can't go to Great America with my bro on monday like we had planned.

I will sign my contract tomorrow. But before that I need to find some liability insurance that I can purchase myself since I"m not hired through the school (i suppose I"m an independent contractor).

I was in my classroom yesterday and I get my own desk and my own students. We will be testing the first few weeks to determine the lowest readers and then provide support. I"m excited. I bought some organizational stuff since typical teacher stuff doens't seem required. I even have a scripted curriculum. Seems like it will be a nice first year. I don't have to do any of the normal teacher stuff (report cards, parent conferences) just helping kids get to grade level reading and writing. I"m sure once I get used to the program I will want to spice some stuff up and offere up suggestions. But for now I will do what I'm told.

Lung issues still present. I didn't get up until 8:30 (which is sleeping in b/c I couldn't fall asleep finally until about 1 and then woke up at 5:30 hacking my guts out.

So I took Aunts advice "Ya only have to run for 10 minutes"

I took the dogs out and decided to test my lungs. We did pretty well. It wasn't till I stopped running where my lungs felt bad again.

I kind of had an epiphany about my lungs last night. What if I'm not sick and it is anxiety induced? I looked up anxiety symptoms and chest tightness or not being able to breath with ease is one of them. But running is my stress reliever. So I'm in a catch 22. But now that I know I can run and won't have a breathing spasm and fall over and die I think I will try running again tomorrow.

I'm going to change my 1/2 marathon goal for Sept 6th to run for fun instead of running it under 2. I think that is causing too much pressure in my head. It seems when I set actual goals for myself (besides finishing and having fun) I freak out and go into shut down mode. (I think this comes from highschool years of not liking any physical activity or sports). I wish I could change my mindset some how.

In other running news--I'm trying to sign up to be an assistant coach for Girls on the Run. I say trying b/c they are pretty bad an replying to emails in a timely manner. They have a slot for me in the spring but now in the fall they said I could be an extra coach. This sounds weird so I emailed the main coach directly to see if he really needs me or if I would just be in the way. Cross your fingers. I think helping girls like me will be fun and I wish I would have known about the joys running when I was younger!

4:30pm. tossed and turned all night due to cought and anticipation of first day. Which was very boring (no kids yet) and I didn't have much to set up. I may put up my bulletin board tomorrow.

I had to go number 2 the last 3 miles of my run which did not make this run particulary pleasant!

fYI bloggers I still cant breath...so my runnign will be sporadic at best.

first full night sleep in a long time. I think i figured out my inhaler. I missed a dose today and was hacking when I laid down. When is this suppose to end? What gives?

I could not wake up this morning!

So I did 30 day Shred level 2 at 7pm..that was still too soon after dinner (1.5 hours)

So new plan (still figuring out schedule) I have about 2 hours after school for when SO gets home(I like to have dinner ready shortly after his arrival (he does not care aobut this time frame--the perfectionist in my likes it)

I will do the 30 day shred or Elliptical at 530 in the morning M-Fri. then walk doggies. Then after school I will run. The weekends will be sporadic at best do to my still working at restaurant (that will end after wedding)

Tomorrow there is a fun run at 6pm...If I get there early enough I will get a free pair of Bolega socks (love those socks!)

Oh my breathing is still labored...I finally have a doc appointment on Wednesday. Hopefully my symptoms are still there and I don't look like a fool!

REally liking my new career! We are still testing. Hopefully by wednesday I will know which kids I get to help and will start the lessons.

I haven't run consistently in like 2 weeks. I'm nervous about my 1/2 next monday...I figure if I run atleast 3-5 miles five days this week I won't completely die. I won't hit my under 2 goal but I don't think I will die. Thoughts?

am workout--530am --30 day shred level 3 and dog walk 1.2 miles

pm workwork--I went to the LRS for a fun run. I got a free pair of balega (sp?) socks. I love these socks and normally they are 14 bucks so this is nice.

Plus I felt like I did pretty well on this run since it was like 90 degrees! I was alone for most of it. I think a lot of people started out too fast b/c I kept picking them off. It was definitely a confidence booster for me.

day eight of no caffeine soda! Yeah!